Honestly I have no trouble understanding why people off themselves. None whatsoever. Sometimes I have significant trouble understanding why most people continue. Sometimes I object to what goes down in this world so much that I feel tarnished by sticking around in it. That's probably irrational but it's a way I've often felt. If you really can't understand suicide, think of it as a protest vote. Think of it as walking out of a movie that you think really sucks. Think of it as disgust with what you've been force-fed—or what you've chosen to eat—and making yourself throw it all back up. Think of it as an abortion that happens years late. Suicide is self-abortion as a means to get away from what's intolerable in the world. I can't not understand it. Maybe I was destined for it. Or maybe I simply understand. There's a lot I understand. I wish I didn't understand this, but I do.